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The frustration of a writer who wants to be taken seriously as a writer

Posted in Fanfiction, Original Fiction, Rants, Short Stories, Strauss Vampire Novel on May 19, 2009 by teamjalice1863

I’ve come to the conclusion that I can’t be taken seriously as a writer until I pull myself away from fanfiction, and start listening to all the characters that are in my head for my original fiction. That makes me sad. I wonder if Cassandra Clare, Stephenie Meyer or Holly Black would understand how this feels. I’m fairly certain Cassandra would, because, like me, She started out as a fan fiction writer. I do take my fan fiction very seriously, as well as my novel writing.

What makes me even question my seriousness is the fact that yesterday, I got NOTHING written on my short story for the submission. This is not a fan fiction this submission. This submission could open a lot of doors for me! Yet, I’ve done nothing on it for several days now. *shakes head*I’m going to have to really buckle down tomorrow. I say tomorrow because today’s Gene’s b-day, and unless I take my laptop, I won’t really get the chance to work on anything. Then again… since it’s NOT fan fiction, I’m pretty sure people wound understand if I did.

So, until I can pull myself away completely from fan fiction or get published, I won’t be able to take myself seriously. What this means, is I really need to take some time out for my own writing, and get away from the fan fiction. Maybe update one fan fic a week. But spend more time with my own characters. I think that might be the issue here. I think my original muses are angry with me.

Uninspired, Unaccomplished….meh.

Posted in My Self, Rants on April 20, 2009 by teamjalice1863

Well, the only good thing that happened today was that I finally got to watch some of Where on Earth is Carmen Sandiego? on TV, and I got to spend some time with my guys at ZV in a conference call. We’ll probably all get together later tonight after my shows are over. Maybe. I told Jozzy I wanted to do some more. Tony owes me a chat too.

I’m a little irritated with myself for having lack of motivation to work on anything. *SIGH* I wanted So badly to work on my novel, but I really couldn’t focus on it. The most that I got was CH. 7 finished. And that really doesn’t feel like enough. More over? I couldn’t work on ANY of my writing. It was SO frustrating. I wanted to bash my head into a wall.

Sad, and irritated

Posted in Dreams, My Self, Rants on March 25, 2009 by teamjalice1863

Okay. So, I had a good night of sleep. I mean, I feel rested for the first time in a long time. I had a dream about Carmen SanDiego. LOL. Like, me and the guys from Rock a Pella were on some kind of crazy case. I wish I could remember the details. I know Daisy would’ve been a little amused.

Then I had a dream about the wolves of the Quileute…. go figure. My Quileute muses can’t even leave me alone long enough to let me sleep without seeing them. LOL.

So this morning. I get up, and have an email from Ella-Bella. Her mom has taken her computer away from her until the end of the Summer. That’s just fantastic. *sarcasm* I feel bad for her, and I know she’s going to go nuts, because the internet was her sanity, kinda, with all her craziness. But. That also means I’ve offiicially lost my very last Twilight RPer. I’m so frustrated. Nothing seems to want to go right for that.

But I guess in the long run, I probably don’t need to RP my plots out as much as I used to. See, I have written a couple of one-shots without Rps. The one for Alec and Jane, and the one for Sam and Leah. That tells me that I have enough confidence in myself to pull this off. But, really. Ella-Bella’s mom is just. UGH. She reminds me of April’s mom in a lot of ways, and that really makes me irate. This was not the news I wanted to wake up to. Later today, I’m going to see Pat next door to plan out my brother’s B-day card, and everything. ^^ I’ll have to get Pat 3.00 after I get back from vacation, but that’s okay.

Well, I’m off to work on the large argument with Jacob and the Cullens. It should be loads of fun!

Ja-ne.

Talk about “wasting time”….

Posted in Fanfiction, Rants, Twilight on January 6, 2009 by teamjalice1863

This is a review I just received on my newest fic, What the Heart Wants:

“I hate twilight, edward, bella, alice, jacob, ahnegfah4eg. They ruined 4
hours of my life and another 3 hours when i went to see that stupid movie with
my friends. I slept through twilight.
Go get a life. Stop reading fan fiction and get a boyfriend/girlfriend or
just a friend. Don’t ruin your life by reading crap about twilight saga. Kiss
somebody ~Sam”

LMAO! You just wasted like ten minutes of your time, coming up with an insult like that! YOU go get a life. I have a boyfriend, and I am very happy with Twilight. And by the way? My bf? He doesn’t mind that I love Twilight, because he’s always first! And I love him. If you hate it so much, don’t go on the FF.net sections devoted to it! Most of us writers are going to ignore you anyway!!

No Love from me.

Passionate? Yes. Obsessed? Hale No!

Posted in My Self, Rants on January 5, 2009 by teamjalice1863

Okay. I need to speak about this, because I am really getting irritated with some of the comments I’m getting. Not here, but in general.

I have people that I live with whispering behind my back about my “obsession” with vampires. Okay. I’m not OBSESSED with vampires. I’m comfortable writing for them. I like getting into histories, and things like that.

Here’s another one: “She’s obsessed with Twilight”. Obsessed? Or just really passionate? Obsessed is like you can’t shut up, even if you KNOW the people in the room aren’t interested. I can shut up about Twilight. I have done it. Just ask Lexi.

And the latest? “Heather. You’re obsessed.” Just because I showed someone a newly posted picture of Jackson as Jasper. That doesn’t constitute obsession! Passionate! Passionate! Passionate! There is a friggin’ difference. I have that word now. Thanks a lot, people. I hate word “obsession” now. That one, and “rabid”. Those two words? NOT good references for me.

All of that aside, I’m irritated because I didn’t get to work properly on my chapter one part that I needed for Protected One, and even more irritable because I doubt I’ll get to working on Ch. 4 of “Lost and Found”. *SIGH* My writing really needs to become priority over everythingt else. Especially work on my novel. The Fanfics, not so much, but the novel? I want it ready for an editor before this time next year.

Today just has not been the best day for me. Period…and speaking of that…mine is due. Soon. Sorry for the TMI. >.>

Irritated to find out….

Posted in My Self, Rants on December 31, 2008 by teamjalice1863

That I am NOT over him. I don’t think I ever will be, and it pisses me off that I got so freakin’ hung up on a guy that will never return those feelings. Why? Why do I do this to myself constantly? First Jay, then Barry, and now this! But this is the first time I am absolutely smitten. And I can’t do a damn thing about it.

And in case you’re wondering? No, this is not about Jackson. I’m not That rabid. I love him, I really do, but no,this is about someone else entirely. His name is Will. Well, that’s what we’ve always called him. He’s such a sweet guy, but he’s never going to look at me the same way I see him, and it really freakin’ hurts.

Where’s Jasper Hale when I need him? *sighs*

People….tick me off

Posted in Rants on December 18, 2008 by teamjalice1863

I am so annoyed right now. It’s nothing anyone I know IRL has done. In this case, it’s someone online. Her name isn’t even worth mentioning, so I won’t. But she keeps doing the same crap over and over, on a continuous loop. Meanwhile, she has the audacity to say she’s grown up. I’m sorry, sugar. Growing up doesn’t mean you ditch your friends every time you get the chance.

She calls us family. BULL. CRAP. If we were family, we wouldn’t be the first damn IM she closes out when things get “too full” or whatever her stupid excuse is. She’ll never have this blog. This is MY safety net, and my place in the internet. No one will get their hands on this place unless I trust them enough to link. *SIGH*

I am tired of her excuses. I’m tired of the lies. I’m not going to put up with the shit anymore. There is no excuse for her behavior. She’s acting just like the jerks she used to HATE at the RPG we all used to belong to. She’s let it consume her again. And suddenly, she’s got more “important” friends than us? Well. GOOD. FOR. HER. I’m not going to be the one to remind her these are the same people that used to hurt her feelings all the time.